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| He is bigger than my problems. Lord, help us to rejoice and stay strong through this.
I love my family so so much and would do anything to get us through this. I'm feeling so helpless now but I know I need to depend on Him and rest on His promise that He won't let anything happen to us because He loves us so much.
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| Now that exams are over, I finally have the time to blog "properly" again. This week was filled with lots of study in the Science library, laughter over the most insignificant things, lots of meals with Ange, Andrew and Kristi, and amazing grace from God.
Although I am glad that exams are over and that study doesn't dictate my life anymore, I think the inner nerd in me is emerging and (I can't believe I'm announcing this publicly) I'm already missing the Science library and attempting to write pretty colour coded, font printed notes. Some of you may find it hard to understand. But you see, the Science library has been a foster home to me over the last 3 weeks. I've been there from the early hours of dawn just as the sun is rising and birds are chirping til dusk and way into the night and as a result, have grown rather fond of it. I've eaten (illegally) there, napped there when the study was getting to be too much, made funny faces behind librarians' backs for telling me off for whispering on my mobile while they have conversations at decibels that are harmful to the human ear and even developed love-hate relationships with smoker dude who goes on smoking breaks coming back smelling of tobacco and purple shirt dude, who, like his name suggests was wearing a bright purple shirt and would not stop talking about how he couldn't eat preserved mango because he was going on a run later that arvo and would be dehydrated if he did.
As much as I miss "studying" and the library, I am thankful for this break and that I can direct my time towards other educational purposes. Like watching documentaries on Coco Chanel and learning Khmer for Cambodia. Aika and I decided a while back that we would learn Khmer before we went to Cambodia. A few people have asked why I'm learning it and why bother because I still won't be fluent in it come December 19th and there will be people who will be able to translate for us. When I was in China last winter, P. Paul explained to me why he studied Mandarin so diligently, spending hours a day learning new words and phrases from dictionaries and other people. He said that if you loved someone, you would want to learn their language so you could communicate with them. I know I've never been to Cambodia, or met any Khmers, so it may seem a bit uncomprehending that his statement would have any effect on me. Although I've never met anyone from Cambodia, I think that I've already developed a love for them. I feel a strong sense of sadness for those that do not yet know the gospel and an urge to share with them the good news so they do not have to suffer for eternity. I know that they are all my Father's children, and He loves them so much and cares for them. I believe that it was Him that placed a burden for the Khmers in my heart and it is through Him that I have come to care for them and love them despite having never met them.
I know that I probably won't be able to speak anything near fluent Khmer or have actual conversations in Khmer, but I believe that the little I would have learned would better equip me to communicate to the natives, reach out to them, show them that I love them and that they are so important, hence I'm learning their language. I know I am terrible at languages and pronunciations of accents, but I know that His grace is more than sufficient for me. And I know that His grace will help me to reach out to them and communicate with them, and maybe, through all of this, they might see His amazing love and might come be saved. After all, the language of love has no barrier. 
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| 1 more to go!
Since it's already officially Friday, that means 1 more day til I'm done with exams! And I'm done with Finance forever! I finished my Commerce degree as of Wednesday. I already feel like exams are over. Came home after Property, slept because I've had no sleep over this week, watched GG, had dinner and did practically nothing (apart from format my notes for Trusts - yes, I am particularly picky about my formatting, all the dot points and headings have to be at the right margins and right sizes...). Anyway, my Mimco shoes I've been looking for in every shop in Perth and Melbourne and on ebay and on their website that were sold out in the WHOLE of Australia are back in stores. I was tres excited. I discovered this yesterday in the library and practically squealed out loud in delight. I think the whole library heard me and I got a few weird looks. Mom was really happy for me and said she'd get them until she found out they were 3 inch wedges which are "impractical" and cost $300. Now I'm undecided whether I should get them because then I will have a lot less money for everything else.      | | |
| I am thankful for so much. For a wonderful support system; wonderful godly friends who encourage and pray for me and with me and bring me so much laughter despite being cooped up in the library all day, for an incredibly sacrificing and caring mother who goes to lengths to ensure that I have enough rest during exam period by doing my chores for me, writing me little notes and cooking for me at the strangest times, for Chelsea who's always up waiting for me when I get home from the library at the latest hours, and for the strength and grace from an all-powerful God to survive this mentally and emotionally demanding period and amazing peace despite the stressful conditions. First exam tomorrow. I will do my best. | | |
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